The Silent Uatu

2007-11-07T09:49:00.000-08:00

MIGRATED..

Hey ppl..just for the heck of it..

I migrated to a new place..

rohan ka naya adda

No actually the new place is a whole lot cooler..and have a few of mt bes buds around from college.

2007-07-07T10:29:00.000-07:00

Aatma Katha..

I dont know why people keep staring at me..in spite of their so called very busy lives, I find them staring at me for hours. In the age of slender curves I wonder what they find attractive in my flat demeanor. My predecessor had a curve to its credit , but me..I am all about perfect straight geometric ages.

I am the object of attraction of everyone..old and young. Whenever I feel that I've settled in a phase, into a single world ; there is a change of heart & with a swish i am forced to speak in a new world with completely new sentiments.

People are devising novel ways to increase my attractive quotient, depicting peoples' emotions to affect people themselves. Maybe that is what attracts people to me , they have an opportunity to experience all the flavors of life and maybe find there heroes and heroines in them..to the extent that they fight with each other to control me..

I pity my life , i actually do but what will I then say about the people who value me above reality.

ek duniya dibbe ke ander
kab ho gayi wo jeewan se sunder

2007-07-07T08:45:00.000-07:00

The Boring Days of Inter phase..

That is what I have started calling this phase of my life..the inter phase - a time of my life which does not belong to anything and even a week of time amounts to nothing substantial.Well that is what I thought earlier..it is strange how I feel these days torn between excitement and a nostalgia with a mix of boredom..A sense of loss for the things that have gone and will never return(past), boredom...well i am jobless(present) and the buzz for the future..
It is strange how we think that when we get time , we will do a whole array of things and end up never doing them..
For me there were two things that i thought for this summer -
resume my sketching and blog more frequently..
done nothing of those two..guess thats how life goes on..
Cant think of nething to write due to lack of inspiration,so stopping here abruptly.

armaanoo ki saajish,
umeedoon ki baarish..
kuch kehti hai ye zindagi ki bandish..
fir kyuu hai sab kuch paa lene ki khwahish..

2007-06-14T12:04:00.000-07:00

THINGS I'll MISS......

Well first of all the title should now be "Things I am missing" ,the lazy blogger that I am. My friends kept asking me why was I not writing about roorkee when the time to bid adieu has come..and I am sure this time i could not blame it to laziness..it was fear..no apprehension I guess..first that writing about it would make things final..poorna viraam if u will..but even that was not it..the reason was I was afraid because I was gonna write something that was much bigger than me..

Anyways here I am..again..To make my life simpler and bring order the chaotic whirlpool of my thoughts..why should I not write them point wise..do here I go :

wo raste wo galiyaan - I'll miss the campus mann..whenever seniors used to come back2roorkee or i saw some alumni discussion..I was bored about how they would keep on talking abt the main building..blah blah..I thought.. :) .. And here I am about take the next turn of my life and now enslaved the majestic splendor of the structure..I guess its what the building represents..a proud witness of equally proud intellectuals( we are arent we ;)) , ..Its an anchorage to all of us..sth that has withstood the tests of time..

wo classein - Ooh..yes..I'll miss them big time..not that loved them academically..which I did to a certain extent..It was that i got to obesrve..observe how the 70 odd people reacted to the same session in entirely different postures..

there is one called the 'swinging lady' where the person sways to & fro between the reality and dream world....

there is another 'totally out' where the victim can no longer take the 'torture' and surrenders fully to sleep not caring about the repurcussions
Some people like me use the 'hypnotic stare'..we look at the teacher with rapt attention only to let our minds freely wander to the cravings of our imagination..

wo bhawan - guess what..hostels are called bhawans out here..so what do I miss..the 50 year old structure which needs to be brought down..the baad baad mess food..the unhelpful staff..oh..yes! I will.. I loved my floor..filled with the chotus,the saands, the budhhas, to the dudes..it had all the species from different corners of India.
wo night outs - I guess this one aspect of college life that is surely lost forever..never again will we be able to enjoy the night outs for movies, serials or for no reason at all with this much ease..heck what..it only meant missing a few classes(though I still didnt)
Wo BAKAR - thats IITR lingo for gup shup..haa..me an introvert likes to speak less..but throw in a few friends and then you are up for a treat..mix the ingredients well - masti , mazaak , ek doosre ki lena, and even sentiyaap in the final days..these were the moments that i will miss dearly..to not care about the ways of the world..and still feel like we owned it. haah..thats what college is all about i guess..

Wo yaari..I dont think that can be summarised in any damn point..the one thing that will most is my friends(Its a cliche they would say..but a cliche is a cliche for a reason..I retort)
ab kya boloon yaaroo ki yaari ke liye..and i stop here because the more i write about it..the less it would start meaning..

naye raste nayi dishayeeinn,
un rastoon pe chalta mein dhoondtaa nayi tamannayaein.

2007-03-30T15:37:00.000-07:00

This how I got placed...

I started this as an exercise to help my juniors but recounting my whole interview experience was so enriching that I decided put it up here. The theme is not what I usually write but anyways here it is....

First of all my whole interview experience was totally weird. Things kept on happening around me

M- Me , P - interviewer

I had gone for IC design profile and took its paper

Interview 1: (20 minutes)

P1: So Rohan feeling nervous?

M: not at all Sir. (weird I had just entered the room. It was if that guy had reharsed the Q heh..so interviewers have goose bumps as well.)

P1: Its pretty cold out here in Roorkee. How are u managing with just a suit?

M: I am wearing more woolens inside sir.( Stupid answer..well the question was stupid as well..anyways it was purely a tech interview)

P1: So how have you done in your exam.?

M: decent sir since I got short listed.(trying to be smart heh...)

P1: lets see how you have done in your paper? (takes out my freaking paper..Noo)

M: …?

P1: now try solving this question?

M: Ok sir!

(The question was that of timing diagram in with propagation delay blah blah etc.)

[I try solving the question trying to correctly sketch the timing diagram. I think I failed badly, still I kept asking small questions.

Could not complete it .]

P1: Ok! So what have you done here?

M: I explain in detail. Spoke everything that I know of this which wasn’t much to begin with

P1: (that bloke was a young engineer..I guess he gets confused , unsure what to do) Okay! Rohan! What are the topics you are comfortable with?

M : (promptly) Sir! Boolean algebra, Counters design flip flops...

P1: Okay! Rohan! I think you are suitable for the other research group. Let me bring the guy who is representing the other group.

M: (okay! I am still not rejected..hope Rohan hope)

( I wait outside for a few minutes)

Interview 2 (25 minutes)

P2: hello!(looks at the paper) Rohan!

M: hello sir!

P2: (browses through the paper..come on man not that paper again.)

Why don’t you try this question?

M: yes sir!

( It’s a energy balance question with a whole lot of jargon of battery and ampere hours put in. I solve it after a few hassles)

P2: why didn’t you solve the question earlier Rohan?

M: did not get time sir!(as if time had to someting in it..the last guy told me the trick to it)

P2: ok! Then you can try this question as well?

( A CMOS question)

M : I try this question and thankfully solve it after a few minutes. It was an easy one.

P2: Okay..Rohan lets try another question.

( gives a new Q – asks me to solve a circuit containing buffer, op-amp, current source and CMOS element).

M : (never been so stumped on a tech Q like this)

P2: (He also realizes that) – No idea, Rohan!

M : None sir!

P2: But these are necessary skills to be in IC design

M: (I try my best to convince him that nobody knows that much CMOS at bachelors level, even E&C people which was true by the way. I would learn stuff on the way and big fattaes like that)

P2: (remains unconvinced) You are a Electrical engineer(Damn!). Seeing your course structure I suggest why don’t you try for embedded design?

M : (already stumped, I jump the gun!) Ok! Sir! Can I still try for it?

P2: wait ! let me see!

( I again wait outside for a few minutes)

Interview 3 (come on line up you ppl – 20 minutes)

P3: hello! So you want to try for embedded design?

M : yes sir! ( I did that a lot of times that day)

P3: are you interested in embedded?

M : ( I had to know that was coming)

Gave some futtaes like embedded is a field where both the knowledge of hardware and software are required. Good for me as electrical engineer. IC design on the other hand requires too much CMOS which is out of my current scope . did not know that at the time of taking test.

P3: (slightly convinced) asks me a few factual questions on C++.

M: did not know them ( later came to know it was slightly advanced Q)

P3: Sorry Rohan! Continuing further would be unjust to people who have taken the exam and have been short listed. Sorry!

M: (despo mode..Run rohan beg do something DONT GIVE UP) Sir! From what I have heard the questions that you gave in exam were simpler. Why don’t you try me with one of those?

P3: (puzzled by my doggedness) Okay!

( gives me a Q on DS – linked list )

M : I give the algo promptly( it was a simple delinking linking algo)

P3: gives another Q extending the previous question on improving the efficiency.

M : I do that as well taking a bit longer time.

P3: ( seems interested)

Further extends the question

M : ( I m trying to solve it)

P3: Rohan! You have GPA of 8.8 ( while going through my paper)

M : yes sir!(oooh! maaan!!)

P3 : you wait here and try solving the question!

(He actually went to talk to his HR guy/head of panel.

GOD bless the past Rohan who worked hard to get that CGPA)

(Mean while I desperately try to solve the problem and am successful partially.)

(He comes back after a few minutes)

M: Sir! This can be done in this way.( never before I spoke with such pace)

P3: (listens absent mindedly) Ya! That’s good.

come with me.

M : (what the heck is going to happen now? Lord, not another interview)

We got into a side room.

P3: fill up this form.

M : ( somewhere beside the skinny shades of his hand I read those letters on the form: FOR EMPLOYMENT)

(Oh lord so here is the place where the story titled Rohan unfolds...)

EMPLOYMENT FORM :

HR form

Strengths , weaknesses, biggest achievement , principles.

Interview 4 (20 minutes)

P4: So, Rohan tell me about yourself?

M: (big time cliche ppl I just wish there would be an interview where ppl dont ask such a Q.)

P4: You mentioned, you become ‘over focussed’ . How is that a weakness?

M : (had it coming) Sir, I believe that one should have proper balance in life(yaaaawn!!) . Balance between work and entertainment don’t get too much too much involved (guess this is wat ppl call HR, speak the obvious in a not so obvious way Nd you sail through).

P4: your best achievement?

M : To have been able to stand up to the expectations of my parents.

(a guess that’s a new one in the cliches of best achievement. Would never know what forced give me this answer, never before that very moment such a though came to my mind. )

P4: how?

M : academic(cliché) support to be there in need etc.( may be that time it was not a cliche I was using it was a CLASSIC..after all a classic is a classic for a reason)

P4: (seems satisfied) Rohan, as an electrical engineer you are slightly weaker in programming than E&C people?

M : (took a defiant attitude) I don’t think that E&C people are better than us, atleast at IIT Roorkee. If you are talking in general then I can only say that I am used to working harder and longer than most people.

P4: Do you want to ask something?

( very tricky and open ended Q)

M : (totally frustoo after 4 rounds of interviews)

What are my chances of getting a job@freescale? (Never ask such a stupid question..purely suicidal)

P4: The selection process is still going on. I cannot tell you now.

Okay. Rohan thank you we’ll declare the results in a few minutes.

AND then this man comes out after what seemed two ages of middle earth and calls my name as if he is takin attendance.

But I.

yes I

still remember the way he was holding the paper , the wrinkles on his old face, the wry smile on the tech interviewer man ooh! man it was surely the moment of my life.

There ,,, right then people
Rohan Dayal met his destiny.

In case you were wondering what is this blank space for,
well there is still lots more I have to do. Its just a start.

2007-02-01T02:12:00.000-08:00

Since I have got no ideas..I am just puttin up a few of my sketches that I made 7-8 years back..when the world was more innocent.

2006-10-01T10:21:00.000-07:00

LIFE...are we living it??

This quaetion has long haunted me and post lage raho munnabhai... this issue has again rejuvenated. crowd,noise,pollution,the unending race after time,JEE,CAT,GRE, the hunhub the tension ...where is the life that was supposed to be gone??The question is that chasing after our ever changing dreams have we stopped enjoying the journey.
Just a few days I was returning back from home.There is a 1.5 km stretch that I have to walk home.The city was just waking up.As I waking at my own leisurly pace,I could see the occasional vehicles passing by.All sorts of people - new techies going for their work in company cabs,parents dropping their children to school,school buses.It was like my chain of thought was being instigated by the woosh of the passing of vehicles.An occasional 16 something too passed by pushing their scotteretes to its limits.reminded me of myself a years back though I owned a good old Bajaj priya :).
All this was very good.But the saddest part was that I could not find a single smile on any face.It started out as a casual observation but even after carefully looking at each face passing by me in fast forward motion(likr our lives),I could not find even one smile.It seemed all of their were contorted into some weird expression that was incomprehensible to me.Some faces which I could not see were buried in text books.Is this what we have bargained for??and you want to know the weirdest part of all-the only face that shone of happiness.A laborer(thats my guess) goin on a batterd ATLAS in one of the shabbier set of clothes you will see humming some hindi song..
Is all hope lost...not yet..not yet..
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MaY tHe FoRcE bE wItH yOu

2006-07-23T01:58:00.000-07:00

WHAT IS BEING AN IITian

Today, I am transgessing my moral limitaions to write about something that is much bigger than me and obviously my human capabilities.Something that has always intrigued me since my first year.

WHO IS AN IITian??
Hailed as the ambassadors as Indian supremacy in technological information and brain power..Is it just another hype in the mindsets of people and media OR are WE DIFFERENT??

Three years into it..and slowly a realisation has come in..
there is a ring in something everything even an average IITiann does.He is mind boggling to the normal eye.
Nd of course he is the biggest geek on the planet..they have the ability to can do..nuthin seems to be out of their reach...

And again I am not talking about academics...be it in any field..the image of an IITian bein a lean thin person is no longer true(though I am one)..Sports , athlectics, even comp games ...once they set their eyes on something, u can feel a sort of madness in them to defy all boundries..

Thr is one more flavor to the whole exp.erience. Since IITs are national institutes you get a whole breed of people living around you..a mix which you will rarely found anyehr lese in india...

but the greatest thing is a sense of realisation about your strengths and weaknesses..If thr is one thing that I can surely learnt in my three years..this is the one. Studying here has been a revelation..You realise wat you are good at..and humbled by your weaknesses..(that is normal though) ..
But the greatest thing is the feeling of awareness. Let me elaborate..you think you are completely superb in something ,be it a trivial thing like playing a game or reading novels...but here you will find tens of ppl eho are more fascinating and classy than you in that very field. "The point is even the invincible can be overwhelmed"
...and this I think is the underlying ethos of being an IITian
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The views are authors personal views and not facts. They should also be not interpreted as self-pompousness as as I always been an ordianry person amon extra-ordinary friends..
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MaY tHe FoRcE bE wItH yOu

2006-07-16T21:39:00.000-07:00

I have a habit of writing a line or two here and there whenever I feel like...I am givin them here with contexts...(they were on my orkut profile)..

My feelings on leaving bnglr(lived thr for 2 months)

jo apna samjha tha paraya ho gayaa..

jo gharaunda banaya tha woh ab ujad gaya...

udaa woh panchi waapas apni jadoon ki oor,,,use kya pata woh jadeein bhi ab parayi hoon gayi...

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Simple desire to be different

sabne kuch kiya hai mujhe kuch karna hai...

insaanoon ki is bheed mein kuch alag dikhna hai

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My views about the whole idea of working for career,grade etc..

The tests of time have yet again begun..

Fight I have to w/o rhyme and reason.

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ALWAYS BEEN MY PRINCIPLE OF LIFE

Abiding by the rules that I made for life,

Standing tall in every tide,

Working for high and expectng low..

That has always been my principle for life.

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2006-07-14T22:12:00.000-07:00

10:40 am
15 july 2006
last day at bangalore...

yet another post in 2 days...hmmmph..no work to do...so here I am again...
The not-so-famous trio of abhinav rai,ayush khandelwal and rohan dayal at DRDO bnglr has finally going to meet its end...and I am the last survivor of this fellowship...
Aksin went last week and abhinav today in the morning and i am left alone to brood over the matter on my own....

Not so much to write I guess but sure the days will be never like this again..bahut masti kari hum logon ne...and we came to know each other beneath our masks..the real us...

This post was on a more personal note...
this is rohan signing out of RDARAK inc. for the final time
RD for rohan dayal
AR for abianv rai
AK for ayush khandelwal...

2006-07-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

7:30 p.m. 14th july 2006
last night at bangalore!!

Gosh!! Another chapter of my life is over!!
Finally lookin over the hill is fourth year,my last year at college..but that story desrves another post

This is about Bangalore....a city where it is 'happening' (you can read it as ' IT is happening ' too).
Life at bangalore is a completely different picture....people comin in goin out....a horde of people chasin there dreams and most of goin no where....just sittin in another cunbicle in just another office...is this what life has in store for me..I hope not!!

Again I am digressing from the topic...Bnglr has a culture of its own.People earning and living with style..I have lived in delhi..been to munbai and chandigarh...but here I felt something different here..Normal people getting their hair streaked brown....shops for esp. candies..and of course the rock culture out here.Guys of my age suited in weird clothes with weird addons to their hair and beard patterns unknown to a person like me...guess that is why they say Bnglr rocks.

Another intersting thing is the mix of tradition and modernity out here..I have found ppl of my age followin the west and the south(east) in this case quite religiously..wat the hell yeaterday only wen i was eatin out at garuda in front of me were the perfect examples of hotNhappenin and beside me was an aunty sittin in a most tradtional attire...

On a personal level, this trng has been an eye opener..guess it was my first time facing the world on my own having been lived all my life in a protective bubble first of my parents and then of my institute...guess wat..only 1 year left for the bubble to meet its final end...

chalo enough for today!!
KUDOS BANGALORE!!
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MaY tHe FoRcE bE wItH yOu....

2006-06-19T01:01:00.000-07:00

LIFE

Riding on the road of life I was,
On the steed of my own pride, so daunting I was,
Everything was small and easy, so Strong I was,
Building castles and desraying them in a jiffy,so Fearless I was,
A fool in delusion,that's what I really was...

2006-01-18T01:31:00.000-08:00

SUPERHEROES

I guess I have been always different in this sense. When my friends were busy bullying and doing other 'mature' stuff, I was still stuck on super heroes. It could anything from the gr8 batman, the amazing spiderman to the pityful nagraj. Now at the age of 20 , this craving is still strong, infact it is kicking.
maybe it is because I love super heroism to the core - just the idea to work urself to the grind to do vrythin that u think was not possible ,to pull something out of the magic bag to work tirelessly and surprise others;
maybe thats what super heroes are all about,an extension of our own psyche - in the core is the ideoligy that what you believe is what you can do ;
this is what I would say is super heroism ,when u see a sania mirza beating a kuznutsova or a kaif pullin a win for india ;
acts which cannot be justified by limiting urdelf to the constraints of normality these are the acts that stay with you
life is so normal we need super heroes

2005-12-22T08:37:00.000-08:00

GOD IS HERE

The exams are over and so is the tension.
but after so much hectic and so much ho-ha the pleasure of doing nothing itself induces boredom.That is when u start writing a blog.

I have never been gr8 believer in god but yes I believe in a power that is much greater than own. something happened a few days back(not a very big incident though) that has reinstated my faith
So here it is.....

Being a good ghissu that I am , I have been always interested in getting marks(read but not studying).But post JEE I have been quite content and not so much a big marks savyy.
ohho!! I forgot a big point My big funda - I never tend to ask things from god like we pray or whatever.my funda is work all of it on my own and thank him when I succeed.
It so happened that this time around I got pretty bad marks(my friends should read microprocessor) and I was tipped to not got 9.0 cgpa as well as loose my D.R. 3;
and for the first time I felt I wanted a small thing very badely and still could not get it. I angry,frustrated and every word that u can find for a negative emotion in the dictionary... I knew it was a small thing just a rank just a mere number but thr I was a helpless mortal bound by the limitations of commoner mind.Everywere ppl like me were talking about marks and other numbers
I had to escape all of that. What to do ??? I just hopped on my cycle with no where to go... so just started paddling around the insti lookin for solace..and thr I saw it as never before as a source of salavation the familiar white structure of the saraswati mandir. With gr8 apprehension,I entered the temple which by the way was closed on a sunday morning(like all the other things in roorkee).
I just stood on the main door having nothing else to do....it was like nuthin I have felt b4.I asked him give me (wat I now think was stupid).I asked for more of those stupid marks(like a fool)...felt better............................
got out of the temple and a phone rang bringing me back to the real world..it was my frnd he told me something that was not believable- I got a A in the subject and he was telling something about a moderation comittee and my competitor getting low grades-BUT I was not listening it was like a miracle ;
something that small yet so improbable had happened and that day guys
my faith was reinstated

2005-12-18T08:01:00.000-08:00

"A mythical bird that never dies,the phoenix flies far ahead to the front,always scanning the landscape and distant space.It represents our capacity for vision,environment and the events unfolding within it.The phoenix with its great beauty , creates intense excitemen and deathless inspiration. "
- The Feng Shui Handbook,feng shui master Lam Kam Chuen

I can be with u all the time talking and yet I may be lost in my reveries into the lands that can not reached by sane minds. I may be defeated, lost and obilerated but not brought down. That is why again I fight , fight to write ,struggle to blog.

Anyways guys! I thought I should give blogging another chance .